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Wednesday, 11 November 2009

6 more months

like how a friend would put it... bittersweet...thats how i feel.

I'm officially 1 more semester away from graduating. It's scary because i've always dream of this moment, but for reality to finally sink in...it's like....bittersweet.

Bitter because now i have to start looking for a job. I've got greater worries to think about, and a lot more to do. My life will go through a 360deg change because i'm no longer a child, i can no longer say i am a student anymore. WORST of all...my transportation expenses will soar...hahaha...so anti-climatic,

Sweet because school was tough. Life in SMU can only be summed up as late night projects, mugging, meeting the BOSS (system), booking of GSR, and countless moments of stress, PMS coupled with terrible temper.

I don't even know why i am doing this reflection now when reality is that i have to go through all of that for another 6 more months.

haha

i can't wait!

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

My 6 year old tuition kid blurted it out today

"you are actually quite fat"

i was shocked for a moment thinking he's just poking fun, so i gave him my classic "wth" face...

"ok, honest, you are a bit fat"

my reply was...

"...O_o..."

So there, i have very honest tuition kid.

Anyway, i've been busy coping with school lately....somehow i don't seem to be coping school, but rather school copes me.... but it's all going to end in one week's time! Can't wait...then off to the middle east, busy busy with weddings and woohoo my graduating semester begins!

You know, i shall learn not to cry over spilled milk. Learning to let go of the past and moving on. I think this baggage is too heavy for me to carry, somehow i hold on to this baggage so tightly because i always feel there is some sentimental value to it, but i think i really need to learn to let go now. Only when i learn to let go then can i be free from the shackles on my feet.
Sometimes, i don't think i'm a very difficult person to deal with, but yet other times, i turn into this cold hearted being that's selfish and couldn't care less. I battle a lot...WHY SHOULD I CARE?, i kept asking myself...WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER?... i have lived so long for you, now i just want to live for myself, is that very selfish? Yes i guess, but to juggle with so many balls in my hands, i just feel my mind and heart has very little space left.
My mind and my heart has very little space left.
Where did the spaces go?
Have i been putting them in the right places?
Am i investing my spaces correctly?
Why is it that my spaces are not giving me the "fullness" that i need to fill my heart?
Life becomes just a routine, a meaningless cycle. I need to find another meaningful cycle, and another routine. And this time, lets not forget the Maker.

Monday, 12 October 2009

I fall in love all over again every weekend. :)

Friday, 02 October 2009

My 23rd birthday cake! :) Love bb!

Monday, 28 September 2009

My Formula 1 Moment

This was my F1 moment 34 floors up an office building.
See the brightest white lights, thats the race track.
I don't see the fun of F1...do you?
I have to say, a soccer match is way more exciting than that.
But, oh well, i had my F1 moment... :) RIGHT UP there!